On New Year’s Eve, the test was positive.

As I sat there in the bathroom, reading and double-checking for two little red lines, reality sunk in that I was, indeed, pregnant.

In a moment that should have been pure excitement, it was accompanied by disbelief and stress. For anyone that has experienced infertility loss, they know grief creeps up in the happiest of times.

This was my story.

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My husband and I had been here before. We had seen the positive tests and allowed ourselves to be overcome with joy, only to watch our world crumble when that 12-week checkup came around.

Like so many other families, our story was filled with heartbreak and unanswered questions.

Why was this happening? Did I do something wrong? Will we ever get the chance to be parents?

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With faith (and a good amount of therapy), my husband and I stayed positive. In our times of darkness, we clung to each other and fell even more in love.

After several losses, my faith was wavering.

And then, our little miracle came along.

I white knuckled through the first three months. I prayed for the best while preparing for the worst.

Then, at our 13-week checkup, we heard our baby’s heartbeat.

It was the most beautiful sound I had ever heard.

As weeks went by, we continued to get good news.

Our little bean was growing strong, and at our 20-week checkup, our baby was happy and healthy.

For the first time in the three years of our pregnancy struggles, my husband and I let our guard down, and we were blissfully happy.

Those who have experienced infertility or pregnancy loss understand the pain of grief. It can feel isolating and overwhelming, and truthfully, too many families know this pain.

If you are going through this, I have you in my heart. I understand that pain all too well and I pray that you have your moment of pure bliss.

My guardian angel sent me my sweetest blessing, and I can’t wait to meet the little one that is about to change my life.

Baby Levine comes early September, 2025.

Being “Maddie” for the past 31 years has been awesome, but I can’t wait to become “Mom.”

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