The Time That Post Malone Helped Me Take Back My Life
Believe it or not, there was a time of my life when I was an absolute mess.
Nobody truly knew how difficult of a time I was experiencing, dealing with personal issues. Yes, we all have them, but I hid mine well – or as well as I could.
I was depressed and almost nobody knew.
For the past few years, I was battling something I couldn't control: my inner emotions and thoughts. Each day that went by, I fell deeper and deeper into a slump that slowly began turning me into someone unrecognizable. I began to distance myself from family, friends and coworkers. "One day at a time," I would continuously tell myself, but I became disillusion and was lacking self-motivation.
Finally, I came to the conclusion that I needed to change something, quickly, and I needed to do it solely for me. However, I didn't know what that "something" was, so there I was, once again, back to square one.
A co-worker of mine who I consider a good friend – you know him as the afternoon host on Fun 107, Jackson – invited me for a night out in Boston to see The Chainsmokers when they played TD Garden.
It was a night I'll never forget.
I re-discovered the meaning of "having fun" and "letting loose." It had been a long time since I've been able to do that and it felt incredible. I definitely needed it. The next morning when I woke up, I started to make my way home back to Westport. The sun was shining and there wasn't a single cloud in the sky. This is the part when my life took a sharp turn and an unexpected one for the best.
Fun 107 began playing a song I haven't heard before.
For once in my life, it was "new music;" this is uncommon for me to discover on the opposite end of the airwaves, as opposed to hearing it first in the studio. Post Malone's "Circles" began playing and little by little I dove deeper into the music, tapping my steering wheel and lip-synching what few words I picked up. I've never downloaded a song from iTunes faster in my life.
The temperature read 75 degrees at only 8 a.m., the windows were down and the warm sun hit my face. A smile emerged from the depths of my emotions and suddenly, at that exact moment, I felt something I had almost forgotten.
There was something so right and uplifting about that song. Even to this day, whenever I hear it, I turn it up. It will never grow old for me and still delivers the same feelings of positivity and joy.
Whenever you can recall a pinnacle point of time that brought you any kind of feelings, whether they are good or bad, trust that it did so for a reason. For me, I have Post Malone to thank for reaching out his metaphorical hand through my speakers to give me the comfort and the reminder I needed.
This may sound foolish or even ridiculous to some, but for me, it was life-changing.
"Circles" takes me back every time, but instead of bringing up the bad times, it helps me remember the one day that changed me for the better and helped me take back my life once again.