I'm writing this in hopes I'm not alone.

I'm not sure why I do this, but I am fully aware of the consequences of this odd behavior and practice. When the pressure is on to finish a task, that's when I produce my best. Now, don't get me wrong, there are repercussions that follow close behind with this kind of critical thinking.

If you've ever had writers block or a brain freeze when trying to think or become productive, that's my brain on the daily.Once I hit a brick wall... I find myself stuck for sometimes hours on end with no way around it. Often times I find if I lay my head down for a few minutes that perhaps I can trick myself to regain the energy lost when trying to recuperate from the standstill traffic in my head, but I'm not always successful.

If I were to compare it to anything, it's similar to A.D.D. (Attention Deficit Disorder) but not quite the fully developed. My eyes tend to just stare at the screen of a computer or a piece of paper and nothing computes. By the time the idea juices start flowing and the light bulb decides to turn on, it's a whole different story, but it's most likely during crunch time.

It's always when time is running dry when I find myself pumping out creativity and work progress. It's relieving, yet at the same time tiresome. Distractions may be my worst enemy, but they are also a part of life. It's simply an obstacle that I seem to always be tackling.

Picture this, My mind is ALWAYS in 20 different places making it difficult to calibrate my thought process, but when all 20 perspectives lock into place... that's when the magic happens and I'm instantly glued to the task.

Strange? Yes, and I'm very much aware... so who can relate?! Or is it just me?

#ScatteredAndConfusedButNeverDefeated